I decided to refresh the color in my hair, and in the process of washing out the color, I Lost. A. Lot. of Hair. There was one patch of hair that came out in a big messy clump.

And that’s how I knew it was time for the return of the pixie cut I wore for many years. And so I got out the clippers and got busy, and my Austrian was there to help me each step of the way (he is a treasure)! Surprisingly, the new hair cut was pretty successful at covering the bald patches.

But a few days later, it was no longer possible to cover the bald patches with a purple comb over! And just then a friend dropped by with a box of hats (Thanks Sharon!) and I quickly found a few new favorites out of her box of tricks. And the one I ordered from Amazon also turned up right on time, and will also be a comfortable option as well. I have long thought wearing hats was a lost art, so I am delighted to be able to express my creativity by wearing a selection of fun and quirky hats!

I have not done the full buzz cut or shiny bald cut yet, but that’s coming soon to a chemo patient near you.

So… when I asked the chemo nurse navigator when I would lose my hair, she confidently said chemo 3. For me it was at the end of chemo 1. For you it may be a different time, and that’s fine. On one hand I wished I had more time to play with my hair. On the other hand, the low levels of energy I have had make doing a lot with my hair sound like work.

As for feelings, I have not felt a lot of big feelings with this transition. I think because I wore super short hair for so long, and women would come up to me and tell me they wished they had the courage to go so short. I don’t know what bravery has to do with it, but this pixie cut feels like an old friend. I am fine. And even if big feels show up when I shave off the last bits, I will be fine then also. Hats are fun! I have my eye on a purple wig, so that will also be just fine.

And if big feelings do come, a I will notice them and feel them and allow them to pass. It’s ok not to be ok. Hair matters. I can’t explain how or why, but hair matters.

If you’ve been here for a while you know the drill. Here is my crafted prayer and declaration as I contemplate my hair in this season:

I am making my hair an offering. It is not stolen from me. I give it to the One who gave it to me. My hair is an embodied prayer, a sacrifice of praise, and I offer it freely.

Sending you love,


4 responses to “Purple Pixie”

  1. Ginny Hartzler Avatar
    Ginny Hartzler

    Yes, hair is important! It is another part of our body. PHOOEY on the people who declare to not worry because it will grow back. And your hair especially has always been so much a part of your creativity, so that is also something you are losing. I always looked forward to seeing what you were doing with your hair, it cheered me up.

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    1. Carmen Shenk Avatar

      Thanks Ginny, you are a gem!


  2. Cindy Avatar

    I love your spirit and attitude. I derive comfort and encouragement from you!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Carmen Shenk Avatar

      Sending so much love and healing your way!


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